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alice <3
22 January 2006 @ 02:23 pm
last night was probably one of the most incredible nights i have had in a while..
alot of memories made, and shared.. and old friends reunited.
i have so much respect for some people right now.. they have changed the way i look at things, the way i feel.. just everything i thought i was about..
its just different now.
i'm so amazed with my life, and my friends. and all that is going on around me.
i'm so glad i'm apart of such wonderful peoples lifes and i'm just happy.

i'm really happy i had the talks i had with some important people last night.
and the new ones i just met..

i've learned that life is so amazing.
and i have nothing to be scared of.. nothing.
i am so happy :)
alice <3
01 January 2006 @ 03:44 pm

well i had a really really exciting new years.. friday i went to a hockey game with my dad and his gf and my sister. we stayed in a hotel and it was fun.. ate out alot and spending time with my dad for the first time in forever wasn't that bad at all. i really liked it :)

here is a time line, and pictures :)


big post.. just a warning.



i'm glad i'm happy with these people.. they complete me.Collapse )

alice <3
29 December 2005 @ 10:27 am
I'm sick of seeing you cry
And wasting all your time
On someone who will never care enough
To make you feel loved
To make you feel safe
I would drop my life to take his place

To show you just how good
Being touched could be
Commit these words to memory
For when you find yourself
Pinned under his demands
I am still an option that you have

So carry me around
Like a picture in your purse
Pull me out when things are at their worst

You can show up at my house
Completely unannounced
We'll have that movie kiss we talked about

Where there are no words
Just a soft and gentle score
Our ears will ring from all the strings

We'll let the screen go black
And watch the credits run
And see the names of every one

Who we ever met
And who we ever missed
Each one had a role in this

It's just another film that won't get made
I'm sick of seeing you cry..

i'm in love with this song.
almost as much as i love you.
i miss you.
alice <3
21 December 2005 @ 02:23 pm
i'm in california for a little bit :)

be back sooon <3
alice <3
20 December 2005 @ 03:28 pm
you can drop it now :]

you have made it clear to everyone how immature you are, and how idiotic you can be.

thank you for proving me right, yuo did a wonderful job.

ahahha you make me laugh your so pathetic.

i love my life :]
i love my friends..


bff your the cutiepatootiestesterere i swear to god.
alice <3
19 December 2005 @ 03:29 pm
at least i don't walk like i have a broom shoved up my asshole.

fucking bitch.

alice <3
11 December 2005 @ 11:41 am

friday was pretty fun i guess. my mom was out of town so i had some people over.

yesterday i went to alex's for a little bit, he is amazing. i found my new best friend. definatly.
last night i got to see aaron :)
it was amazing as usual.. <33333333333
but the craziest thing happened to me.
and its the end of all my parafanilia..
i'm so done.

basically, i was at beatniks, smoked with some kids
then i started feeling so weird
and started sprinting towards a bench like running full speed
flew into it, face first.
got knocked out, and layed on the ground for what seemed like an hour
but i was told i was knocked out for only a minute or two
and then i woke up with my boyfriend hovering over me
screaming omg omg are you ok alice are you ok?
and i was like what? why? i'm fine..
and he goes why are you laying down then? and what the fuck happened to your face?
and i was like omg and i looked down and i didn't even know i was laying down.
and i was like i can't see anything
and then i couldn't hear anything
and i couldn't feel anything but my face throbbing
i almost started crying i was like so scared
but then aaron held me and i just sat on the bench and felt better..

no more smoking the reefer for a very long time.
i've been meaning to quit and now this is the end.

now i just need the patch to help my other addiction.

maybe this will turn my life around :)

i need a new start.. something else to add onto all the wonderful things happening to me.

*cough* aaron *cough* :)

well.. i'm gonna go get ready, my moms having a christmas party and i'm supposed to help her with decorating and stuff. and i have to explain to her why i have a huge bruise on my face.\

heres some pictures of us :)


how does it feel to know your everything i need...Collapse )

alice <3
26 November 2005 @ 10:59 am
Oh why cant I be what you need
a new improved version of me
but i'm nothing so good
no i'm nothing
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence of love and of sorrow
i beg for just one more tomorrow
where you hold me down fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins

I break in two over you
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you dont see me, you dont...

here i'm in between darkness and light
bleached and blinded by these nights
where im tossing and tortured til dawn
by you, visions of you then youre gone
the shock lifts the red from my face
when i hear someone's taking my place

how could love be so thoughtless, so cruel
when all, all that i did was for you

i break in two over you
i break in two over you, over you
i break in two
i would break in two for you
now you see me
now you don't
now you need me
now you don't

i'm hoping this is the end of you..
i can't go on like this..
everyday its worse and worse..
alice <3
24 November 2005 @ 09:30 am
thanksgiving is supposed to be the day where you are thankful for everything you have..
your supposed to be with your family and have fun..
but i don't have family..
and i'm british..
so it doesn't really work.
turkey day pretty much was a big punch in the face opening my eyes to the fact that my family sucks.

but oh well.
i'm thankful i have my friends.
because without you guys i don't know where i would be.
thank you guys. :) hehe

well.. i guess thats all i have to say.

and also.

i'm sorry i don't wear underwear, cause it seems i lost alot of friends, and made alot of enemies because of it.
its pretty fucking sad.


<3 - alice
alice <3
20 November 2005 @ 12:42 am

well.. there is so much i have to say.
but i realize that no one fucking reads this.
and to the people that do i thank you alot..
i'm glad you care, i guess.

i hate it when you look at me in the eyes and tell me your sorry
and you hug me and squeeze me with your warm hands..
looking at me with those eyes..
those fucking eyes..
i know you think you mean it..
you say sorry to everyone for all the mistakes you make..
you think your so stupid and your such an asshole.
i tell you your not because thats the side of you i want to know.

i hate it when i look down and see another girl in your hair
the way i used to be
the way we used to be..
when things felt right.
fuck all that.. fuck it.


best friends my ass.. you play with me..

this is a huge picture update.. warning you its like biggg..
had a tea party at charlottes today..
thank you so much to everyoe who came.
and thank you so much for everyone that came out to support of another caliber
i love you guys so much..
tonigh was amazing you guys did so good i am so proud of all of u <3


im so alone and you seem just fine..Collapse )